dig the dirt.

go ahead nessa. go and be so bloody fucking stupid and give in to your wants. give in to your impluses. knowing that you would clearly regret it later on. so whats the point in doing things like these? its not being fair to yourself.
but its not your fault you hear me. i made the first move. i made the move to steer to that path. hoping for that exact outcome.
i'm not going to let it mean anything.
as much as i hoped that it might mean something. but i knew it won't the moment that thought came into my mind.

chin up nessa.
cause it was all on impluse.
its not going to mean anything cause i won't let it.
and i hope you won't either.
it happened in the heat of the moment.
a one time thing.
and i'm not going to let it affect me.
and hopefully.
it won't affect you too.

we both know what it is now.
there is no feelings involved.

cause its not allowed when i'm not going to let it affect me.